Making you LOSE all HOPE
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From the second to the fifth day of the first lunar month, Jiang Yuan busied herself with visiting families and friends. Hence, preparations for Bai Luo Yin to go abroad was temporarily placed to the side. Finally, on the sixth day, after much difficulty, she finally found some free time. But without warning, she bumped into one of her old classmates, who had just returned from abroad. Unable to refuse her friend’s warm and enthusiastic invitation, she complied and accompanied her for dinner.
As she listened to her old classmate account on how great life was abroad, Jiang Yuan was convinced. This had not only confirmed Jiang Yuan’s conviction but it strengthened and made her even more determined. She must send Bai Luo Yin abroad, and once he has settled down over there, she will go and stay with her son once she reached her old age.
Jiang Yuan painted an extraordinarily beautiful and meticulous illusion with her imagination. She never once thought that it was a strenuous or tough task to accomplish. Her belief is that, there is nothing that she cannot attain if she set her mind and put effort into doing it. Just take for example when she decided to sever her relationship with Bai Han Qi and planned to marry a rich and powerful man. Everyone around her had thought that she was delusional, practically crazy. That it was just her own wishful thinking. But, in the end, reality favored her and stood by her side.
No women are born under an unlucky star and has to endure hardship. There are only women who does not seek nor have the ambition to progress.
This is what Jiang Yuan often told herself.
It was already dark outside when she arrived at her villa in the military base. Jiang Yuan quickly made food and waited. Just as Gu Wei Ting and Gu Hai took their seats at the table, Jiang Yuan picked up her bags and made way toward the front door to change her shoes. While she was changing her shoes, she said, “I have some matters to tend to, you guys take your time eating.”
Gu Wei Ting remained unperturbed as he glanced at Jiang Yuan, “Where do you want to go this late at night?”
“I want to go and handle Luo Yin’s going abroad plans. I have to go and take a look.”
“That fast?” Gu Wei Ting slightly narrowed his eyes toward her.
Jiang Yuan smiled, “Fast? I been complaining that it’s too slow.”
“Why don’t you just go tomorrow? How do you know if the person will be available to see you or not this late?”
“I’m afraid something else will come up tomorrow and this matter will be delayed even longer. Don’t worry, I already made an appointment in advance.”
Jiang Yuan had already put on her shoes and was about to open the door when Gu Wei Ting said, “You could have just hired someone to handle these kind of matters for you.”
“Even then, I would still have to go and take a look, if not, I won’t be at ease.”
Afterwards, she bid Gu Wei Ting and Gu Hai farewell and happily made her way out of the door.
In reality, she has yet to make any contacts with Bai Han Qi with regards to this matter. To make matters worse, neither has she heard any information at all from Bai Luo Yin. But, in Jiang Yuan’s mind, those were only minute details. When everything is finally prepared, there will be more than enough time for her to deal with those two.
On this day, Gu Hai sat in his mother’s room the entire night.
Bai Han Qi had woken up extremely early in the morning. He pushed opened the door to Bai Luo Yin’s bedroom and said to him, “Today, I have to go out to Tong Tian’s older aunt’s place. Lunch is already made. It’s in the kitchen’s cabinet so heat it up in the afternoon and eat it.”
After he finished speaking, he headed out of the house with Aunt Zou and Meng Tian Ting. Big and small packages of gifts were bagged and held tightly between his fingers.
It was already the seventh day of the first lunar month, Bai Luo Yin picked up his cellphone and saw another text message from Shi Hui.
Bai Luo Yin didn’t even bother to look at the message as he replied back.
“I want to meet with you today about something.”
After a few second, Shi Hui responded.
Bai Luo Yin had already gone into the bathroom by that time.
He faced the mirror as he brushed his teeth. Every time he picked up his head, his gaze met with the mirror, he could clearly see the school uniform that hung neatly behind him.
On the night of the thirtieth, before the Lunar New Year, having known for sure that Gu Hai would not be at his residential, Bai Luo Yin returned there. Actually, he didn’t have anything in mind when he went there, he just wanted to take look around. Since, after all, it was once half his home; his second home
Everything in there remained as it was the time that he had left. The only different was that, the bedroom wardrobe was opened.
On the floor next to his feet, was a school uniform jacket. It was evident that it had been trampled on. And it was made even more apparent from the dirt and wrinkles that adorned it.
Bai Luo Yin had only picked it up, took it home, and washed it.
Even at this moment, it has yet to dry up completely.
Bai Luo Yin began to wash his face, but then, his skin tingled and he could sense that the door was opened by someone. But, owing to the fact that there was still foam on his face, he didn’t dare open his eyes. All he could simply do was quickened his pace and splashed more water on his face.
But suddenly, a very powerful force grasped the back of his head and pressed it directly into the water that filled the sink. He choked several times. By the time his head was pulled out of the water, without even a chance to open his eyes, those obsidian orbs were wrapped in darkness.
He was blindfolded.
The sequence of event afterwards, was exactly the same, as the first time he was kidnapped and taken to Gu Hai’s place. It was only that, this time, the person, himself was doing it.
A familiar scent assailed Bai Luo Yin’s nasal. When he was taken into the car and had just sat down, he faced the person and repeatedly asked the person beside him, “Is it Gu Hai?”
The person beside him did not respond. Coldness remained intact on his face as he continued to drive the car.
“Speak up!” said Bai Luo Yin in a stiff yet harsh tone.
If it was really Gu Hai, Bai Luo Yin felt that this was absolutely and utterly unnecessary. At this very moment, he could calm and collectively talk with Gu Hai, but…it was just that, he was afraid, it wasn’t Gu Hai.
“Are you Gu Hai or not?”
“Gu Hai, is it you?”
Since Bai Luo Yin had been placed in the car, until he was taken out, he had asked the same questions, over and over again no less than ten times. Each time, each question was repeated, a sense of urgency and anxiousness danced between the words.
Several times, after Gu Hai heard his name being called out and saw said boy’s facial expression, he couldn’t help but want to open his mouth to respond. But, in the end, he held his tongue back, gritted his teeth and forced himself to remain silent.
Bai Luo Yin was thrown onto the person’s shoulder and carried upstairs.
At that exact moment, there were no doubts in Bai Luo Yin’s mind, who the person was.
But it was precisely because this person was Gu Hai, that a wave of fear conjured in the pit of Bai Luo Yin’s stomach and unfurled throughout his body.
Due to the temperature in the room being rather warm, in the minute that he entered, beads of sweats immediately perspired freely down his face. One by one, each article of clothing on his body was striped off. Some of which were just completely torn apart. Even though he was covered by sweats, he still felt the chill of the wind once it settled on his body.
His pant was torn off. His underwear was torn off.
Bai Luo Yin finally spoke.
“Gu Hai, I know it’s you. You don’t have to be like this!”
Gu Hai didn’t hear anything at all. Not a single word entered his ears as he pulled out his own member and stroked it. He stroked it until it became enlarged, hot and thick. It looked as though, it could conquer anything and everything.
Then, he fiercely and forcefully pressed down on Bai Luo Yin’s upper body, and raised his waist upward.
“Gu Hai, I’m telling you……mmmm……”
Gu Hai stuffed a towel into Bai Luo Yin’s mouth, blocking it. He untied and removed his blindfold, so that he can clearly see everything that followed.
Without any lubricate, without any foreplay, or even the slightest signal, he brutally thrust in.
In a split second, the extreme pain and anguish circulated at full force throughout Bai Luo Yin’s entire being. As if being torn apart, piece by piece, from the sudden attack, his whole body spasm.
Both of his hands have been handcuffed to the back of his body. Gu Hai could see the veins that protruded from the back of Bai Luo Yin’s hands. Every single string of vein, tightened like knots and cried out in unison, pain.
Pain, yes. Today I want you to feel the pain and make you remember it for the rest of your life.
Gu Hai moved without any hesitations. After every thrust, after every withdrawal, all he could see was red.
Before he left, he had stolen Bai Luo Yin’s cellphone. Now, he proceeded to replied back to Shi Hui’s message. He sent her the address and then instructed her to arrive within ten minutes.
Although Gu Hai slowed down, the intensity in his movements did not lessen.
Pain! Pain! Pain!
The pain ripped apart all his internal organs.
It was so painful that the loud sound of Bai Luo Yin’s teeth grinding together floated throughout the room.
It was so painful that both his legs continued to tremble.
It was so painful that his head became dizzy.
Since he was young, he had faced and endured many hardships, sustained many wounds. But, compared to the pain that he felt now, those hardships and wounds were nothing. It felt more like feathers that had landed on him.
Gu Hai struggled through sessions of extremely powerful physical arousals and an enormously tortuous guilt that welled up in his heart.
He felt as though, he had traveled to and reached heaven in one moment, then kicked down to hell in the next moment. The taste of it were both pleasurable and extremely uncomfortable.
Bai Luo Yin’s back submerged in a layer of cold sweat. Gu Hai could faintly hear Bai Luo Yin say, ‘it hurts’ even as he bit down on the towel.
He used his hands to gently wipe the beads of sweats off of Bai Luo Yin’s forehead. And in low voice, he whispered, “Baby, it won’t hurt in a moment.”
Not soon after he finished saying those words, he suddenly thrust forward with full force. The gap that had once separated him and Bai Luo Yin, was no longer there, as they connected together completely. Not even a centimeter dared to come in between them.
Bai Luo Yin felt as if his intestines were about to explode.
Gu Hai started to speed up. His member, that was about the same thickness as his wrist, charged wildly and tussled inside of Bai Luo Yin’s narrow passage.
Bai Luo Yin could feel the top of his head spinning.
It’s so fucking painful.
It was so painful that every single strand of vein in his entire body tightened like a rope.
It was so painful that his facial features distorted into different directions.
It was so painful that he wishes, he could take a stick and beat himself to death.
Finally, a scream interrupted Gu Hai’s movements.
Someone was standing at the doorway. She had stood there, shaking violently, for almost three minutes already.
She had witnessed many horrifying scenes before but nothing…nothing had struck more terror and caused her be consumed with fear, than the one before her eyes now. Those horrible scenes before, merely attacked her visual sensations. But this one, was purely psychological. It completely destroyed her willpower.
Shi Hui drew back her feet and had every intention to run, but she was clasped two men.
“Bring her in!”
Shi Hui cried, screamed and struggled as she was forced into the room.
Gu Hai smiled cruelly; an air of coldness encased and sunk deep into his expression, “Take a good look, pretty girl.”
Shi Hui struggled and squirmed as she cried out, “No……I don’t want to……”
Gu Hai started to move, right in front of Shi Hui’s eyes. He violently and fiercely…devoured and conquered the person that she loves.
“Do you see it? He is mine. Me, Gu Hai’s alone!”
The towel that was stuffed in Bai Luo Yin’s mouth was taken out. But he didn’t struggle nor did he yell out. He grinded his teeth harshly against, refusing to make any sound. Bean sized perspirations crawled down his forehead and dripped as he turned his face away to the other side.
Gu Hai turned Bai Luo Yin’s head back again.
The scene that followed afterwards, became nightmares. Ones that etched itself into Shu Hui’s skin in the next few years to come. Every single time she thought of it, she would break out in cold sweats.
She was carried away by one of the men. Her face was now just a ghastly color, no blood remained on it. Her eyes lost all focus as her body continued to shake. She was left abandoned in an alley. It was only after a long while did a man found and took her to the hospital.
Gu Hai crazily thrust for a while. Then, he abruptly pulled out, stroked is member for a bit and ejaculated.
Bai Luo Yin laid on the bed, motionless.
After a long while, Gu Hai opened his mouth. All the fierceness that had consumed him had dispersed. Only pain and remorse remained.
“I know that you will hate me for the rest of your life for what I did.”
“But I would rather let you hate me…I would still have to do it. That girl doesn’t have any good intention, she’s too manipulative. You can’t be with her. I have to wipe her out no matter what. If I don’t, she won’t admit defeat that easily. I can’t just stand here and watch as she destroys you! I would rather you hurt and suffer this one time. But I am not willing to let you regret those years later.”
“I know…we are over now. I, Gu Hai, don’t have anymore unreasonable request. Only that, you can’t be with her. And if you choose to be together with someone else, I would never interfere.”
Gu Hai slowly released the handcuffs on Bai Luo Yin’s wrist. His eyes became red when he saw the trail of blood stains that remained.
“Bai Luo Yin, I, Gu Hai, can shed tears for you. I admit, I’m a bastard in front of you! I never kept my words. I told you that I trust you, but I ordered people to keep an eye you. I told you I wanted to break off our relationship, but instead, I kidnapped and brought you here. I said I respect you, but I raped you………I’m not human! But, I really truly love you.”
Bai Luo Yin does not respond at all. He doesn’t even turn his head.
“Bai Luo Yin, after such a long time, have you ever thought about me at all?”
Bai Luo Yin remained silent.
Gu Hai’s trembling hands caressed Bai Luo Yin’s hair. And with a hoarse voice, he asked, “Just now, did it hurt you really badly?”
Neither of Bai Luo Yin’s eyelids moved even the slightest.
Gu Hai’s movements suddenly became rigid as he froze in place. Then, he abruptly straightened out Bai Luo Yin’s body. Realization struck him hard when he noticed that there were no responses at all from the body in front of him.
He held Bai Luo Yin’s face in between his hands and called out to him several times, “Yin Zi, Yin Zi, wake up.”
No matter how many times he tried to keep Bai Luo Yin’s head up, it continued to hang loosely downward.
Gu Hai roared out in a fit of rage, “Hurry up and bring a doctor over here to me!!”
It was only then, did the two men that were standing nearby understood what had happened. They immediately paced backward and jetted out the door.
Without wasting even another second, Gu Hai wrapped a thick blanket around Bai Luo Yin’s body. He firmly secured him against his chest, hugging him. Pain and devastation engulfed his heart.
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